A makeover week for my room...

It's been a while i have been thinking about this...

I need a whole new look...

A whole new look for my room..

It's really been a while i last change the way how my room looks like for the pass 5 years and it still looks like an 18 years old girlie looking room with book racks around, ikea cartons along the side of my room, a not so big wardrobe that can fit all my dresses in it, a study desk that full of photo frames and also accessories of mine. My room seriously need a makeover ASAP!

In my mind, i actually don't like those flat painting where the whole room will looks really standard. I actually love the incomplete way of how this room was painted. Well, I'm not really fancy about the pink paints but I would love to paint my room in Pastel Blue, Olive Green or Peach.

But before i start my painting.. i seriously need to get rid of half of the clothes in my wardrobes and also books in my shelf. Ya, as well as gifts or some souvenir that i always like to keep it and never give it away. It's time to really have a spring clean my stuff and get rid of all my junks! Junk lovers, do let me know if u r interested to trade some of my valuable piece :)

So this weekend, i'm so gonna stay at home and clean up my room!! A dream room is a great place for sweet dreams and also a space for good inspiration.

Since my bro is not gonna be around this weekend and in the other hand, i'm still have not found something to learn or do during the weekend, this is a one BIG thing that i want to do for myself! One nice, comfy, studio looking room!! <3

Thanks for the SMS Mr. Sunshine...

Yes, I am not a persistent blogger anymore... Been really away from blogging for the pass 3 months. On and off, on and off!! Kinda feeling a lil frustrated with myself. There's a lot have been happening here with me and yet i just don't have the mood to just sat infront of my Mac and start typing at least.

Frankly, have been really resisting my word "Sunshine" that has always been there in me! I totally dislike the word because i truly cant experience that from myself ever since my grandma lost! I know there's a big piece of me has been really missing which is my passion towards surroundings in my life. Kinda feeling numb with things around. It never gonna be the same until recently i choose to move on. It is something tht i recently announce to myself but not the whole me of wanting to get along with it yet.

So ya, this morning, when I woke up from my very tiring night yesterday, i received this msg from Mr. Sunshine (Well, he's always the reason why i m the sunshine in me) :

"Update your blog with some sunshine happy things la... Let go, move on, welcome the sunshine lor... Look forward to read some new stuff!"

Thanks for ur msg. U always know where to look for me when i'm in my lost junction!

I'm back once more to blog and do things that i used to love for myself!

"To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner is you." Lewis B Smedes

Thanks alot Mr. Sunshine! I truly always being so thankful and in love with u!

It's finally over and I am moving on...

Lots of thinking in my mind for the pass 2 months. Really asking myself am I just gonna let this relationship off after 3 years. A man that totally loves me but he just couldn't let go his priority on his work and other things in his life. Is it gonna be how long we have been together in this relationship or just love?

Frankly, I don't have a single idea on what am i gonna do about this but I know that we're moving on back to our lives for good! Wish u all the best from the bottom of my heart. I do hate u alot that's for sure, and I really not gonna look back and move on.

[ This is so true where i once heard it from someone - If along the way, u both are not so in love, u guys still can remain friends, but If u really love someone so dearly and u guys doesn't work out, u guys will turn to be enemies.] I truly experience that here.

It's finally over, and i am moving on ...

I just bought a Dorothy Perkins black drop collar suit jacket

Dorothy Perkins black drop collar suit jacket

I just bought my black jacket finally @ Dorothy Perkins, Mid Valley after 2 hours of trying out diff blazers and jackets! Not easy at all to find one that fit me properly since I have a body shape looking alike with Cello! Big Boobs, short waish, big bumps, long legs. So of course it have to be perfect looking on me since I want to buy a proper one for long term investment and moreover, a blazer is a must to have for me look pretty and formal, casual but proper... It's one of the "Must Have!" items that In style Magazines recommended. So ya, after walking around, goin in and out from the fitting room [Isetan Cultivation > Padini > Seed > Zara > G2000 >Dorothy Perkins > Top Shop > Miss Selfridge > Nicci > The Mod Shop > Isetan Cultivation > Dorothy Perkins] And finally, after trying out around 20 diff Jackets, still a black jackets from DP suits me more. It's more versatile put it in that way. I can wear it anywhere, anytime, any occasion i wants to since it's black.

But to me, Cultivation have good suits too.. but just that they don't have my size. I also quite like the one in Zara, it's a powdery pink jacket. It's nice, but then it's for a more casual mix and match and it cost RM279.00 for a standard jackets there... Oooo mine... I find a similar Zara look alike jacket in Nicci, it's in black but of course the material is nothing compare to Zara, but it's only RM90.00. Well, I love to have that but how often do i wear that! So ya, Dorothy Perkins have the one that fit me perfectly. It's kinda classic Chanel looking jacket with a lil ruffles on my shoulder pads, it's pretty! I love it! After my very first suits that mummy bought for me 4 years ago, here I am getting one for myself. It will look so nice with my black pencil skirt!

I can't wait to wear it though on this Friday since I'll be back senioring LP136 this weekend for 1st weekend! It's been a while i last back to AW to staff or senior after almost 2 years! So ya, taking myself to a next level!

Good come back after everything....

Happy Tuesday Peeps!

It's time to move on...

Grandma had already passed away for 2 weeks... That's fast!!! and i have been in my up and down mood for the pass 14 days of my life. Someone that's so dearly for me is no longer next to me and somehow i feel the emptiness.. lost.. emotionally up and down along the week.

It's really time to pack up all my feelings of sadness, louziness and get back on track managing my own life and live it with Passion and Joy where my grandma would always love to see me in.

And ya, it's time to let go and really start my engine again to drive towards my next stops which is my goals and dreams. It's been a while i last be presence and really do something for myself. So sick, so dehydrated!

So really, no more wasting time and start up myself to sprint all the way to the middle of my track. I really been stopping a lil too long on being emotional on my grandma lost. and ya grandma, i feel u that night... I know u came and u cover me with my blanket, touching me on my hands.. I feel u... Sorry that i get a lil tooo scared and run out of the room. I know u mean good. I know u been seeing me crying alot but i promise u... I will not cry anymore and be strong once again! So grandma, not to worry!

Well, I guess it's time to move on....

Grandma, u r now a lil futher away from me looking at me from far... But u r always in a very special place in my heart ",

Grandma, i'm glad that u passed away peacefully on the 6th of April 2010, 9.25pm. All our family members were with u at that moment and i know it fulfilled ur circles of life that u always wanted to for. It's the end of your life but it's the new beginning of the reborn of ur life grandma!

I always said, I am very proud to be ur grand daughter, raise by u until today, it make a large impact in my life. Ur love, ur tolarance, ur care and ur patience, it's definitely something that i want to learn and own.

Grandma, have a safe journey. A pleasant departure... and Guess what, u celebrates the 91st year of ur life with good thoughts and good people around u!!

Mum told me that u r goin to be my lil guardian angel that protect me and see me from far... and i believe that!

I miss u and love u grandma! R.I.P

Saturday morning with grandma!

It'a another day with grandma! Somehow feeling that she looks and feels better after comin back to her Cheras house. Her memories come and go... sometimes she recognize me and sometimes not. But she's all good.

Spend a happy 2 hours with her... talking to her, singing to her, feeding her, massaging her. Well, all i can say I'm glad that she live another day with me!

I'm Blessed!