I just bought a Dorothy Perkins black drop collar suit jacket

Dorothy Perkins black drop collar suit jacket

I just bought my black jacket finally @ Dorothy Perkins, Mid Valley after 2 hours of trying out diff blazers and jackets! Not easy at all to find one that fit me properly since I have a body shape looking alike with Cello! Big Boobs, short waish, big bumps, long legs. So of course it have to be perfect looking on me since I want to buy a proper one for long term investment and moreover, a blazer is a must to have for me look pretty and formal, casual but proper... It's one of the "Must Have!" items that In style Magazines recommended. So ya, after walking around, goin in and out from the fitting room [Isetan Cultivation > Padini > Seed > Zara > G2000 >Dorothy Perkins > Top Shop > Miss Selfridge > Nicci > The Mod Shop > Isetan Cultivation > Dorothy Perkins] And finally, after trying out around 20 diff Jackets, still a black jackets from DP suits me more. It's more versatile put it in that way. I can wear it anywhere, anytime, any occasion i wants to since it's black.

But to me, Cultivation have good suits too.. but just that they don't have my size. I also quite like the one in Zara, it's a powdery pink jacket. It's nice, but then it's for a more casual mix and match and it cost RM279.00 for a standard jackets there... Oooo mine... I find a similar Zara look alike jacket in Nicci, it's in black but of course the material is nothing compare to Zara, but it's only RM90.00. Well, I love to have that but how often do i wear that! So ya, Dorothy Perkins have the one that fit me perfectly. It's kinda classic Chanel looking jacket with a lil ruffles on my shoulder pads, it's pretty! I love it! After my very first suits that mummy bought for me 4 years ago, here I am getting one for myself. It will look so nice with my black pencil skirt!

I can't wait to wear it though on this Friday since I'll be back senioring LP136 this weekend for 1st weekend! It's been a while i last back to AW to staff or senior after almost 2 years! So ya, taking myself to a next level!

Good come back after everything....

Happy Tuesday Peeps!

It's time to move on...

Grandma had already passed away for 2 weeks... That's fast!!! and i have been in my up and down mood for the pass 14 days of my life. Someone that's so dearly for me is no longer next to me and somehow i feel the emptiness.. lost.. emotionally up and down along the week.

It's really time to pack up all my feelings of sadness, louziness and get back on track managing my own life and live it with Passion and Joy where my grandma would always love to see me in.

And ya, it's time to let go and really start my engine again to drive towards my next stops which is my goals and dreams. It's been a while i last be presence and really do something for myself. So sick, so dehydrated!

So really, no more wasting time and start up myself to sprint all the way to the middle of my track. I really been stopping a lil too long on being emotional on my grandma lost. and ya grandma, i feel u that night... I know u came and u cover me with my blanket, touching me on my hands.. I feel u... Sorry that i get a lil tooo scared and run out of the room. I know u mean good. I know u been seeing me crying alot but i promise u... I will not cry anymore and be strong once again! So grandma, not to worry!

Well, I guess it's time to move on....

Grandma, u r now a lil futher away from me looking at me from far... But u r always in a very special place in my heart ",

Grandma, i'm glad that u passed away peacefully on the 6th of April 2010, 9.25pm. All our family members were with u at that moment and i know it fulfilled ur circles of life that u always wanted to for. It's the end of your life but it's the new beginning of the reborn of ur life grandma!

I always said, I am very proud to be ur grand daughter, raise by u until today, it make a large impact in my life. Ur love, ur tolarance, ur care and ur patience, it's definitely something that i want to learn and own.

Grandma, have a safe journey. A pleasant departure... and Guess what, u celebrates the 91st year of ur life with good thoughts and good people around u!!

Mum told me that u r goin to be my lil guardian angel that protect me and see me from far... and i believe that!

I miss u and love u grandma! R.I.P

Saturday morning with grandma!

It'a another day with grandma! Somehow feeling that she looks and feels better after comin back to her Cheras house. Her memories come and go... sometimes she recognize me and sometimes not. But she's all good.

Spend a happy 2 hours with her... talking to her, singing to her, feeding her, massaging her. Well, all i can say I'm glad that she live another day with me!

I'm Blessed!

I'm by urside Grandma...

The report is finally out and the doctor told us that my grandmum actually suffering from Lung Cancer, and it's already at a very critical stage where the cancer cell already all spread-ed to even the external side of her lungs.

Grandma, i feel ur pain... even when I'm feeding u water this morning, it seems so painful and hard for u to swallow. U can hardly open ur eyes now, u can hardly talk to us now, but i feel u deeply that u just bare all this pain just to see us all smiling happily knowing that u r fine. That's just so u 嬷嬷, never want anyone to worry about u.

U have been through so much. Especially recently, It's not easy for u at all and u did a great job grandma! I kind of blessed that we only know u diagnosed with cancer now, It's not like 5 years or 2 years ago because i know that we will send u for chemotherapeutic. So thank god u don't need to go through all this. I think this is Good Sign that u are been blessed by God and Grandpa.

嬷嬷, to be frank, until this moment of time, i still not willing to lose u at all.. It's been a real struggle seriously. I've been looking forward to see u every weekend. Talking to u, holding u, making u laugh, telling u about things in my life, how much u have been supported me and Fai in our life. U seriously such an AWESOME grandma! Sitting next to u, patiently hearing us with our Ups and Downs... and now, still without failed, everytime when we walk in visiting u in ur wad, u still putting a beautiful smile greeting us warmly.

I really dunno whether r u still cautious now? still recognize us? or still even understand what we're telling u? I really dunno... that's the scariest time for me to see u in that condition but now, u slowly fading off ur memory, u no longer talking alot, u no longer have any strength to support urself. 嬷嬷, i will be next to u no matter what. I will pray for u... pray for the best for u. If God and Grandpa wanna bring u to a more peaceful and better place, I'm really glad and happy for that as long as u don't suffer from the pain.

to me now, breathing the same air that u breath, being the same space that u r in is really "The Gift" of the day to me. I will keep praying for u... just rest and listen to my prayer and u will be just fine 嬷嬷! Don't be afraid, just follow your heart.. Follow the wind...

You are doin great! Looking Beautiful too like what mummy told u!

I LOVE YOU!

Dear Grandma....

Dear Grandma,

I know u have been really struggling with ur breathing, ur pain, ur ache.. It's hard.. I know... I feel u... everytime when i'm looking into ur eyes, i feel u... I know it's not easy to bare with this.

It's been almost 2 weeks u walking in and out from the hospital. I know u don't like it at all... So much till u raise ur voice saying the Hospital Bluff Money $$! I always enjoy looking at ur angry face scolding people that try to bluff our money! I know that when u scold, u talk loudly, u r clear, u r healthy. U just want to stay home and just be by our side. Every single time when we come and visit u, u will just welcome us with ur warm melting smile. It really melts my heart grandma. (And i do think that i have my sunshine smile from u! ", the irresistible one..)

Grandma, I really don't care about what doctor told us about, be prepared on ur departure, I just want grandma to know that u did a great job 嬷嬷! A very great job raising 12 children of urs as well as ur grandchildren. It's not easy at all to raise so many of us. Ur patient, ur love, ur care, ur understanding. U play a very important role in my life. Here I am standing Strong and Tall it's all because of ur love 嬷嬷... U meant so much to me!

All my childhood is all about u and grandpa. U both took care of me when daddy and mummy are out there working. U r the one that put me to bed, makesure i always covered with blanket and not catch cold. I missed those days that i slept next to u... It's just unsubscribed love.

U always makesure i have my cup of milo and bread before i get up to my school bus. Protected me when i got scold by daddy. U always believe in me, always tell people that i'm such a good grand daughter. Even though u don't know how to read and write but u r there to guide me on my HW which i dunno how... Lol. Ended up me teaching u how to read and write. Well, 嬷嬷, i know u don't even have a clue what am i trying to teaching u that time but all u r trying to do is just accompany me, be one of my playmate when Kah Fai is only 3 years old. So to be frank, i was never alone when i'm in my childhood. U are always there. And 嬷嬷, thanks for being there to support and encourage me in anything i do.

嬷嬷, It's so hard to actually asking me to stop, and just accepting the fact that u gonna be leaving me anytime... I always remember what i told u when i am about 8 years old. I told u that "嬷嬷, 你不可以死现, 不可以哦！我死了你才可以死！” It's just me hating to see her leaving me before me! It sounds really silly but ya, i want you to live a longer life then i do.

I know i am not a good grand daughter. Giving u hell when i was young. I'm really sorry grandma. But u will always be there by my side no matter what. and now i'm already a Woman grandma. I can take care of myself. I'm actually very Happy that now i can take care of u, visiting u as much as i can... It's really my pleasure!

嬷嬷, No matter what, I want u to be happy. “嬷嬷好，大家好！”

嬷嬷, I'm so honour to be ur grand daughter! Thanks for being the woman in my life! I will always keep ur sunshine smile with me.. always always in my heart!

Love u always,
子殷

I love Tuesday Night - the Salsa Night!!

I can't wait for every Tuesday night to come, It's my salsa class... A night that i truly enjoy myself with music, soul and body, not in a peaceful way but in a more lively movement steps where i dance along with salsa music and sway my body with the tempo that i count in my mind! I count "1,2,3... 5,6,7..." That's basically the tempo of the music and steps when we combine both together with our mambo. Loving the class, Loving myself looking at the mirror and dance tall, dance confidently! "Dance Tall" will be the words that Sam kept telling me! I tempt to look down alot on my steps but Sam, my instructor telling me to be calm and confident!!

"STAND TALL!"

Good Night!