PAM Award Night ( or an award for aunty Pam?!?)

25.09.2010- This is a night where our family gather as one to celebrates Uncle Lok's PAM (Pertubuhan Architect Malaysia) Award where he took away 2 awards the Winner and also Honorary Mention for Best Single Residential.

Uncle Lok has always been our role model and an inspiration of our family.. with his talents on creativity on architecture, he design houses that bring us back of memories on our own roots. I feel homely everytime i visited and looking at the residential that he design. Just like my house... He always design the best house that speaks about us... it's just supernatural.

Thanks for having us to be part of the event that night Uncle Lok & Aunt Pam. U both just an awesome couple! I'm so proud to have u as an uncle that i look up for and be like u one day :)

Grandpa was there with us too... He's looking so good with his tie and suit. I have not seen him wearing formal for a very long time, with his grey suit and a very matching grey tie. I can't stop taking my eyes away from him.

He's so happy and overwhelming that night. I'm sure he's really very proud of his son. He took his digital camera with him that night... Can't stop snapping photos of everyone.. esp with his candid shots skill where we're not allowed to look at him when he's shooting us. He's the kind of demanding photographer.

So this is the photo of him goin around the table taking photos of everyone with Jun Nen's SLR camera. Not bad right my grandpa.. He can handle a SLR (Unlike me :P)

We do have great fun that night with all the family members around... and of course not to forget the lovely sitting tags that prepare by Aunt Pam with Kaf & Elmo names on it! ROFL!

Congratulations to uncle Lok once again...

Grandpa is back home safely...

I'm gland that grandpa is home @ Uncle Lok's place!! *Phew* after 3 days where i have totally no idea where he went.. but ya, that's my grandpa!! It's not like his very first time of giving us with all this surprises but this is the very first time he actually didn't call back to let us know where he was... It really kept us worried about him.. Wonder where this 86 years old - old man of ours has been.

But ya, good to have grandpa back home again..

It's time to really give my grandpa some attention since he's getting older day by day. I'm sure there's alot that he's worried about where there's some worries that we can't really be in his shoes when u reach a certain age that nearly to 90s. No matter what, we will all go through this depression stage of his hands in hands together as a family.

Fai and I were so happy that he finally pick up his call yesterday night where we try calling him like 3 times. Fai (My bro) really knows my grandpa well... "Jie, we gonna be patient and call a few more times since u know how good can our grandpa hearing is right?" then patiently we dialed 3 times and he pick up!! He's like telling us not to worry... "Gong Gong is fine, I'm so glad that u all care about me.... I just went off for a holidays... Don't cry, Gong Gong will come to stay at ur place soon!!" He's so cute... I can't even think of crying when the moment he picks up the phone!! I'm more like YES YES YES!!! FINALLY!! and in the other hand, he's like don't cry, don't cry!! lolz (Somehow i feel that my dramaness is mostly from my grandpa instead of grandma!... Now i know..) But ya, it's really a sense of relief!!

After a while, he calls me back like 10 minutes later. This time it was a miss press... He sounds like he's in the cab and he's talking to the cab driver.. He's telling him about his family. How proud he is with his children and how lucky he was... From the minute i heard him saying it, it does touches my heart how my grandpa talking about us even when we're not with him. We are always in his heart no matter where he is. Sometimes we do neglected him when we're busy with our own lives but yet he's still there for us even we're in our ups and downs.

A month ago, he's asking me how Joey and I doin? I'm like we're no longer together. He look at me and just ask why... and he pad me on my head and give me a smile.

He's a man with less words but ya, he's care is just limitlessness..

It's all well, it's all good now... I'm going to see him this weekend!! Just gonna let him know that he's as important as anything in my life. I never know what role that my grandpa plays in my life until this incidents happen.

I always inlove with the month of September because it's the month of CELEBRATIONS...

That's the way how a September should start with... and it's been always begin with my Auntie Janet's birthday [01.09.XXXX]...

It's always been really sensative with age ever since u reach 50... or even 30 for some people!! I always don't get it, what's the big deal with the age thing. U should be proud with how old u are instead of lie and being shy about it... but now ya... when i reach my 25, i felt it already... Damn.. just like how Woei Tyng & I start telling each other about the Anti Aging Cream that we should start Applying... It's like my Mid 30 crisis is about to start...

But ya... whatever, i gonna be on that dot somedays... so just gonna enjoy my 25 years old of mine!

So to have my aunt to forget about how old she was, Beii and I decided to bring her to WonderMilk. Aunt Janet always love places like this and one fun thing about us, she always want us to bring her to someplace that's not really about the food but the environment where the few women can sit down and have chit chat session together...

Wondermilk is just a perfect place for her since me n' Beii still don't think that there's place that's more cuter than WonderMilk! (but ya... It's time for a new place...)

So here I am wishing Auntie Janet with good health and good wealth!!

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And the next we have is my beloved Elmo looking Cousin's Birthday...

The night is belong to urs although we have a cuter one with us that night but u still my coolest and most emo bro of mine.

We had a lovely Family Dinner @ Rakuzen, Subang Jaya. A very nice dinner indeed because we have the whole room ourselves and lil Jasper can cry as loud as he can since the room is ours... But ya, no celebration is better to celebrate with the family.

Happy Sweet 17 my Man :)

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So here we are, the 8th of September....

A day that the smurfies family will always celebrates with laughter because it's our baby smurf's birthday...

We are both alike but we're not alike. Same personality but also different personality... Looking at her is just looking myself in the mirror... but also not really sometimes... but something that have us bond because we both are september babies!! Don't u agree now that year ends baby tempt to be the happening one... lolz!!!

But i always love to organizing birthday for Ms Wong because she's one of the one that got me hands on on all my personal events. Every event planner have their very first event that have them hook in to event and 3 years ago, Woei Tyng's birthday is one of the event that got me fall in love Birthday!!

Thanks for always be a very special one to me... U r like my angel that held me no matter where I am, that's y to me, u always deserve the best of everything! We're more records to create together so make sure we stay fit and spirit free so we can climbs more mountains together...

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to be continue...

What a AWESOME September... Now I'm back blogging once more...

It's been a crazy yet Awesome month... Been goin through lots of challenge in work (Tell me about all my mistake and rejection) and now i'm back in one piece with myself on my desk knowing that there's lot that i should blog about - on the month of September, a month that very much belongs to myself...

Let me run through my pics and i'll be back shorty!!

Sunshine is back :)

Campbell's Seafood Mushroom Soup..

My all time favorite. It cheers me up all the time when i'm down and I don't feel like having anything other than opening a can of Campbell with my can opener and heat up the stove, and here I am with my bowl of satisfying Campbell's Soup.

It felt so homemade...

To me it's like some soap that cooked by a very American Old Granny in her country home, like a lil cottage where she cubes the mushroom, chicken dice, potatoes, milk, creamy mixture of flour.. i dunno... But i do imagine that. So maybe with my imagination, it's always my all time fav.

and of course it also have alot of my childhood memory that this is one western soup that my beloved grandparents will cook for me for my dinner when i'm like 5-10 years old. So that's what makes me happy when I'm a lil girl until now.

So today morning, I actually left my last can of campbell's soup in my room (Ya, i actually stock it in my room since it's my fav.), I just had it for my breakfast, the Seafood Mushroom Flavored before i start my working day :( That's the reason why i had it for breakfast.. working on a public holiday!! Anyways, i'm way pump up for my day!!

Happy Sunday everyone.. and to my muslim buddies... Selamat Hari Raya :)

Another Dream Party of Mine yet to be creates...

It's been a while I last organize a girlie birthday bash , and this time I'm goin to organize for Dear Ally that turning 10 end of this month! I'm actually very looking forward since i missed her 6th birthday with lil' Pony theme.

Since she's now 4 years older, concepts of the party will be slightly diff from the previous one. I remember Angela (Ally's mum) once told me she likes Garlands and colourful stuff, so I think she's very much like me, the fairy tales, sunshine personality girl. But i always love to see her around. She's just so genuine and lovely, just like a lil princess.

So I Mix and Match Ally's personality and her few of her favorites, I come out with a perfect theme for her. "Ally's Sweet Honolulu Candy Birthday Bash!" I actually very inspired by Katy Perry's California girls Music Video. I love the whole settings. Gonna do some brain storming on how am i gonna prepare all my props and bring the set in to Ally's Birthday Bash!!

It's gonna be 26th of September, which is 2 weeks from now. I'm so looking forward for this lovely sweet looking birthday bash! If u r interested to experience this party with me, feel free to come along with me for decorations or even stay back to help me up on the party. It would be really nice to have some Kids fun with me!

Wow... I really miss Scrapbooking. It's really such a craftie way to express my thoughts i have in mind and while putting all the items and image in the page, some new ideas will naturally pops up with some thoughts that i'm doing for this party proposals of mine!

I still gonna give credits to my scrapbooking sifu, Elaine Lai for teaching me this lovely digi scrap!

Guess my stress no longer stays when I focusing on something i really passionate with :)

Happy Tuesday peeps!!

Let me just be a victim for a while in this point of time...

I'm just really overloaded now with the headache in my work, my mum, my customer, myself.. and things been bouncing in and out non stop today.

Lot's of distraction, some surprises, some miracle on problems and also some not so good day from my "Dato'" client or even some other jobs in hand. Everything seems so head wire.

Just get a call from my beloved moonlight buddy that shine up my 1 minutes of focusing in moment. She normally surprise me calling on my office phone, Hyperlink she shout out " Hie Sunshine.... " haha... Ms Choo is too lovely to get annoyed right! Sometimes, i do thank god for sending me all this lovely buddy angels to my life that they will buzz u once in a while when u seriously needed to get urself out on ur stress situation.

Not goin back home tonight since my mum also have turn into one victimie victim like me that having lots of WHY WHY WHY ME conversation running in her head. Not to express much here since she always peep in to my blog but YES mom, U just can't have us to be like ur lil baby to do things u like and say things u want to hear all the time right!

I'm not having any PMS today, but really, what a day.. What a week...

Needed to wait for an answer for love...

Damn, nothing seems in control recently!!

I jus bought a bottle of herbal tea near my place that normally cost RM2.50 and I pay RM10 for a bottle today. And i still pay for it. dunno what it is in my head..

Perhaps, Eat, Pray, Love gonna be something that i'm looking for... (Really can't wait for the movie out though! I just bought a copy of this book yesterday @ borders. Just started reading.. i already love it!!)

OK la... my victim session ends here... just wanna bleed it out!!! It's just overloaded!

Back to work! Ciow!!

The Baguette that I bought back...

The Baguette bread that i bought from Cambodia back home for breakfast harden already after 2 days in my kitchen. (This pictures was taken 2 days ago as a memory of one of my fav. bread that i bring it back all the way from Siam Reap.)

It taste so diff but my mum did do a great job in her herbs BBQ base cocktails with heinz bake beans!! stuffing it in the hard baguette of mine did helps to soften it a lil with the bake bean sauce.

and without waste, i open up a can of traditional Chicken Mushroom campbell soup to serve with my left over bread, it taste superbly nice. At least there's something i can do with those Baguette.

It's a lovely breakfast afterall. But my mum still don't understand what so special about the baguette over there. haha... But it's still the best thing ever i taste in Cambodia!!

"Drooling" now...

I have no idea what's goin on...

This is so funny....

Before I start writing about my Cambodia trip, there's something that is really mysterious about this photo. Seriously, i have really no idea when i took this photo with WT. We both were so drunk until when i woke up very early in the morning to catch our flight back to KL, when i stood up for shower, i saw my camera cap is on the floor but my camera is still nicely placed on the table. It's weird but who cares what happen when u r rushing off to catch ur flight back to KL. And ya, i just could not be bother more... and here am I flying back to KL after a rush one to the airport. When i'm back to KL loading pics to the PC, I'm like gosh!! WTH?!?! since when all this crazy photos that WT and I took when I am completely drunk!! Haha.. this is really funny. This is one of the normal one that i can publish but it's Fun. How often am I that feel so free to be drunk! But ya, i gonna say a big Thank You to my dear Ms. Wong that have been really taking good care of me that night! Sorry for the knock on ur lips!! I really have no idea when does that happen :D

I smell like Frangipani Today :)

I smell Frangipani today...

One of my all time fav. smell ever since my first visit to Bali. The whole island was surrounded by frangipani trees that blossom with white, pinkish frangipani. It smells really sweet and relax. Just like how i smell now...

I bought a bottle of Frangipani massage oil back from my Cambodia trip (Thanks to the real sharp and small eyes of my dearest Ms. Wong that tell me "Guess what i found?!! It's ur fav. Frangipani!!") It's smell just nice, not the processes one but one that have no chemical added one. I just bought a bottle back. Hopefully it last me for half a year to finish that bottle because i can hardly find it here :(

I also bought a bottle of Rose Essence Massage Oil and a Lemon Grass Aroma oil. My room now smelling like Asian Paradise... I can just spend my whole night writing, reading and doing work in my room, turning on my fav. jazz music on my iTunes. That's really what a best night is all about when u have no appointments, and dates to go for.. [ or am i just turning to be really on my own now a days... ] Good or Bad, I always love smelling good, love fragrances, love potpourri, love anything that smell nice and fresh.

That's me with my most fav senses, and that will be my Nose that always love sniffing things that smells good and Yummy... like Coffee and Cakes :)

Cambodia, here i come....

It's been always the "BIG THING" or a "BIG DREAM" for me to step in to all the 7 wonders of the world.

and yes... I'm going to the Kingdom of Cambodia tomorrow!! and Angkor Wat is gonna be so close to me in front of my eyes where i can step, see, touch and just be there and experience this beautiful wonder that has been left for decades where is known as the gateway to the Angkor Region.

I'm not gonna be there for long though... 4 days 3 nights. Gonna take lots of photos and post it here :)

I'm glad that Ms.Wong is coming along with me to this trip since my bro couldn't make it. He choose to be LP where I'm totally surprise with his decision and really he owned my respect with his decision of choosing something bigger in his life!

Anyhow, i'm so gonna enjoy my holiday with Ms.Wong and cousins of mine.

Happy Weekends everyone since Friday is a holiday too :)

When lil ms Sunshine meets LvBeii

Yeay.. I finally get to blog about my weekends!! Thanks to my botak mei mei [LvBeii] to load our weekends crafty hunt photos into her FB so i manage to grab some of the Nicey good looking photos of mine there to load it in to my blog!! [ sharing is caring.. *hint hint* ] Ever since we meet up last weekend @ wondermilk, my creative pulse start burnie burnie again, or it's just about me when i meet Beii each time, we tempt to have alot in common in our creativeness but in a very diff ways.

So this is my very very creative cousin Ms. LvBeii :)

Check out her blog and u will know how creative she can be with all her handmade craftie that really melts ur eyes when u see them. And please.. Do check out her phone and camera if u get to see her by chance! For those who have sweet tooth like me, after looking at her phone, i think u may want to stop by to ur nearby Baskin Robbins or Bakery for a cupcakes or something! Damn.. one hand is like OMG, i can't imagine u have a phone like that and the other hand is like, this is so adorable!!

Not gonna say much about her, just go to her blog and check it out urself.. and of course not to forget her lil cutie pie son, Jasper!! He's one big traffic of the blog with his charmness like his auntie, ME!! haha :)

http://www.lvbeii.blogspot.com/

and yes... we went craft hunting together... just the two of us! Time seems really precious for the both of us where we r so stuck with our work during the weekdays and weekends are the only time we can catch up with each others and go hunting places that we like.

I personally likes Peter Hoe alot. He's a local designer who design very outstanding bold dominant accessories, and lately, for the pass 5 years, he further his design on house decoration and also small items like bags, pouches, passport holders (where i bought myself one and it's so vintage!!), notebooks, journals, albums and many more. And all of his design have different elements of Malaysia, diff taste, diff culture in the eyes of his. Perhaps, u should visit his shop one day. It's a very chill and relax place. It's also one of the great place to buy souvenir for ur overseas friend, it's not like those standart keychains or t-shirts or even some KLCC twin tower statue. Step in urself to his shop!!

So I was there with Beii last saturday. We suppose to go there on friday night but thank god we called and their business hours are from 10am - 7pm.


Peter Hoe's Evolution :
N0.145, Jalan Tun H.S. Lee, 2nd Floor, Lee rubber Building, 50000 Kuala Lumpur

Our next spot is POCO CAFE & ATELIER. Beii has been mentioning to me about this cafe for a few times(she knows i like cafe like this alot)and we decided to check that homemade cafe out since it's something similar to Wondermilk. It's located @ bangsar. So with the limited source that we have from Poco's Blog [pocohomemade.blogspot.com], we just drove there. And i have this very new discovery about my cousin sister here, she's not that good @ direction but when comes to Map, she's just excellento!! haha... Seriously, i can't imagine this Poco Cafe is located in some residential area and finally we came to this very short shoplots @ Lotong Kurau, Bangsar. It's right at the first corner and only if u have Big eyes like Beii or Li Vee's one, u can only spot the cute lil Zakka feel cottage, and here we are @ Poco Cafe.

It's not a very big spacious cafe, but it's just a place that u can chill and enjoy the homemade environment of this lil space that u can have other than ur own home. :)

I really have a great weekend with Beii. When lil Ms. Sunshine meets LvBeii, we can have lots to talk about in common. Our passion in creative thoughts of ours, our dreams, our gilaness on how we look at things differently.

all i know is Our dreams is about to come true when each time we sat on a chair of all this lil cafe. We gonna have one cafe of our own soon. Lots more to brainstorm on, and more idea pourings outing.I am so looking forward to sit on our own cafe chair and draw our creativeness in our cafe walls!!

HOooooo.... I feel like having a bite of chocolate cupcakes now...

5 Fireflies + 1 Nitrogizer

It can be called as a LP Blue Reunion, a GLP mid point check (but there's nothing been checked!!) or it can be a night where so happen that these 10 people wanted to come out together and have a warm and lovely dinner night out together?? It's really nice to have everyone sitting in one round table together and having Yummy Seafood together @ Teluk Gong, Klang. (and after the pineapple that we had as dessert, our next stop is SS2 for Durian... like DURIAN after a heavy seafood dinner?!?!! OMG!!!)

But ya, we have 5 Fireflies + 1 Nitrogizer and 4 Dan Lain-Lain with us in our dinner. Well, we almost have 100% attendance from fireflies where it suppose to be our dinner and Drama Tina went missing where somehow we expected (but i know u r really in pain with ur bad burn on ur stomach).

NEways, it's absolutely a joy and lovely night where we just there spending it together after our busy weekdays... i( don't even remember my car got hit by a Nissan Sentra and there's some damage on my bumper (Damn!!), just before i went to Tom's place to pick up Tom, Brenda and friend. (I kinda feel the heaviness on my shoulder on the police report procedure tomorrow!! DAMN!!! But ya... the good side of it, I gonna have a brand new bumper soon..

Lastly, i would like to thanks my dear Rachel for organizing this dinner! U r simply my best!! Love u so much!!

Sunshine's back dated Family Trip @ Sandakan & KK

Sunshine loves Wondermilk

Wondermilk is one of my fav. spot to chill and have brunch with my fellow buddies. As u can see, it's also a place that u can cam-whore with friends and also a place that i really enjoy myself with a hot cup of Earl Grey with Choc Mint Muffin! What else can i ask for. It's just the best way to kill my monday blue and start fresh for my new week!

+wondermilk shop & cafe

emporium of super cupcakes, great coffee, awesome goodies & not so serious art.

we like lo-fi music, washed up imposters, magic woodland creatures, yummy sandwiches, good coffee, sexy rockstars & colourful sprinkles.

39 & 41 jalan ss 21/1A
damansara utama
47400 petaling jaya
selangor, malaysia

9am to 10pm daily
03 77258930

www.ilovewondermilk.com

A makeover week for my room...

It's been a while i have been thinking about this...

I need a whole new look...

A whole new look for my room..

It's really been a while i last change the way how my room looks like for the pass 5 years and it still looks like an 18 years old girlie looking room with book racks around, ikea cartons along the side of my room, a not so big wardrobe that can fit all my dresses in it, a study desk that full of photo frames and also accessories of mine. My room seriously need a makeover ASAP!

In my mind, i actually don't like those flat painting where the whole room will looks really standard. I actually love the incomplete way of how this room was painted. Well, I'm not really fancy about the pink paints but I would love to paint my room in Pastel Blue, Olive Green or Peach.

But before i start my painting.. i seriously need to get rid of half of the clothes in my wardrobes and also books in my shelf. Ya, as well as gifts or some souvenir that i always like to keep it and never give it away. It's time to really have a spring clean my stuff and get rid of all my junks! Junk lovers, do let me know if u r interested to trade some of my valuable piece :)

So this weekend, i'm so gonna stay at home and clean up my room!! A dream room is a great place for sweet dreams and also a space for good inspiration.

Since my bro is not gonna be around this weekend and in the other hand, i'm still have not found something to learn or do during the weekend, this is a one BIG thing that i want to do for myself! One nice, comfy, studio looking room!! <3

Thanks for the SMS Mr. Sunshine...

Yes, I am not a persistent blogger anymore... Been really away from blogging for the pass 3 months. On and off, on and off!! Kinda feeling a lil frustrated with myself. There's a lot have been happening here with me and yet i just don't have the mood to just sat infront of my Mac and start typing at least.

Frankly, have been really resisting my word "Sunshine" that has always been there in me! I totally dislike the word because i truly cant experience that from myself ever since my grandma lost! I know there's a big piece of me has been really missing which is my passion towards surroundings in my life. Kinda feeling numb with things around. It never gonna be the same until recently i choose to move on. It is something tht i recently announce to myself but not the whole me of wanting to get along with it yet.

So ya, this morning, when I woke up from my very tiring night yesterday, i received this msg from Mr. Sunshine (Well, he's always the reason why i m the sunshine in me) :

"Update your blog with some sunshine happy things la... Let go, move on, welcome the sunshine lor... Look forward to read some new stuff!"

Thanks for ur msg. U always know where to look for me when i'm in my lost junction!

I'm back once more to blog and do things that i used to love for myself!

"To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner is you." Lewis B Smedes

Thanks alot Mr. Sunshine! I truly always being so thankful and in love with u!

It's finally over and I am moving on...

Lots of thinking in my mind for the pass 2 months. Really asking myself am I just gonna let this relationship off after 3 years. A man that totally loves me but he just couldn't let go his priority on his work and other things in his life. Is it gonna be how long we have been together in this relationship or just love?

Frankly, I don't have a single idea on what am i gonna do about this but I know that we're moving on back to our lives for good! Wish u all the best from the bottom of my heart. I do hate u alot that's for sure, and I really not gonna look back and move on.

[ This is so true where i once heard it from someone - If along the way, u both are not so in love, u guys still can remain friends, but If u really love someone so dearly and u guys doesn't work out, u guys will turn to be enemies.] I truly experience that here.

It's finally over, and i am moving on ...

I just bought a Dorothy Perkins black drop collar suit jacket

Dorothy Perkins black drop collar suit jacket

I just bought my black jacket finally @ Dorothy Perkins, Mid Valley after 2 hours of trying out diff blazers and jackets! Not easy at all to find one that fit me properly since I have a body shape looking alike with Cello! Big Boobs, short waish, big bumps, long legs. So of course it have to be perfect looking on me since I want to buy a proper one for long term investment and moreover, a blazer is a must to have for me look pretty and formal, casual but proper... It's one of the "Must Have!" items that In style Magazines recommended. So ya, after walking around, goin in and out from the fitting room [Isetan Cultivation > Padini > Seed > Zara > G2000 >Dorothy Perkins > Top Shop > Miss Selfridge > Nicci > The Mod Shop > Isetan Cultivation > Dorothy Perkins] And finally, after trying out around 20 diff Jackets, still a black jackets from DP suits me more. It's more versatile put it in that way. I can wear it anywhere, anytime, any occasion i wants to since it's black.

But to me, Cultivation have good suits too.. but just that they don't have my size. I also quite like the one in Zara, it's a powdery pink jacket. It's nice, but then it's for a more casual mix and match and it cost RM279.00 for a standard jackets there... Oooo mine... I find a similar Zara look alike jacket in Nicci, it's in black but of course the material is nothing compare to Zara, but it's only RM90.00. Well, I love to have that but how often do i wear that! So ya, Dorothy Perkins have the one that fit me perfectly. It's kinda classic Chanel looking jacket with a lil ruffles on my shoulder pads, it's pretty! I love it! After my very first suits that mummy bought for me 4 years ago, here I am getting one for myself. It will look so nice with my black pencil skirt!

I can't wait to wear it though on this Friday since I'll be back senioring LP136 this weekend for 1st weekend! It's been a while i last back to AW to staff or senior after almost 2 years! So ya, taking myself to a next level!

Good come back after everything....

Happy Tuesday Peeps!

It's time to move on...

Grandma had already passed away for 2 weeks... That's fast!!! and i have been in my up and down mood for the pass 14 days of my life. Someone that's so dearly for me is no longer next to me and somehow i feel the emptiness.. lost.. emotionally up and down along the week.

It's really time to pack up all my feelings of sadness, louziness and get back on track managing my own life and live it with Passion and Joy where my grandma would always love to see me in.

And ya, it's time to let go and really start my engine again to drive towards my next stops which is my goals and dreams. It's been a while i last be presence and really do something for myself. So sick, so dehydrated!

So really, no more wasting time and start up myself to sprint all the way to the middle of my track. I really been stopping a lil too long on being emotional on my grandma lost. and ya grandma, i feel u that night... I know u came and u cover me with my blanket, touching me on my hands.. I feel u... Sorry that i get a lil tooo scared and run out of the room. I know u mean good. I know u been seeing me crying alot but i promise u... I will not cry anymore and be strong once again! So grandma, not to worry!

Well, I guess it's time to move on....

Grandma, u r now a lil futher away from me looking at me from far... But u r always in a very special place in my heart ",

Grandma, i'm glad that u passed away peacefully on the 6th of April 2010, 9.25pm. All our family members were with u at that moment and i know it fulfilled ur circles of life that u always wanted to for. It's the end of your life but it's the new beginning of the reborn of ur life grandma!

I always said, I am very proud to be ur grand daughter, raise by u until today, it make a large impact in my life. Ur love, ur tolarance, ur care and ur patience, it's definitely something that i want to learn and own.

Grandma, have a safe journey. A pleasant departure... and Guess what, u celebrates the 91st year of ur life with good thoughts and good people around u!!

Mum told me that u r goin to be my lil guardian angel that protect me and see me from far... and i believe that!

I miss u and love u grandma! R.I.P

Saturday morning with grandma!

It'a another day with grandma! Somehow feeling that she looks and feels better after comin back to her Cheras house. Her memories come and go... sometimes she recognize me and sometimes not. But she's all good.

Spend a happy 2 hours with her... talking to her, singing to her, feeding her, massaging her. Well, all i can say I'm glad that she live another day with me!

I'm Blessed!

I'm by urside Grandma...

The report is finally out and the doctor told us that my grandmum actually suffering from Lung Cancer, and it's already at a very critical stage where the cancer cell already all spread-ed to even the external side of her lungs.

Grandma, i feel ur pain... even when I'm feeding u water this morning, it seems so painful and hard for u to swallow. U can hardly open ur eyes now, u can hardly talk to us now, but i feel u deeply that u just bare all this pain just to see us all smiling happily knowing that u r fine. That's just so u 嬷嬷, never want anyone to worry about u.

U have been through so much. Especially recently, It's not easy for u at all and u did a great job grandma! I kind of blessed that we only know u diagnosed with cancer now, It's not like 5 years or 2 years ago because i know that we will send u for chemotherapeutic. So thank god u don't need to go through all this. I think this is Good Sign that u are been blessed by God and Grandpa.

嬷嬷, to be frank, until this moment of time, i still not willing to lose u at all.. It's been a real struggle seriously. I've been looking forward to see u every weekend. Talking to u, holding u, making u laugh, telling u about things in my life, how much u have been supported me and Fai in our life. U seriously such an AWESOME grandma! Sitting next to u, patiently hearing us with our Ups and Downs... and now, still without failed, everytime when we walk in visiting u in ur wad, u still putting a beautiful smile greeting us warmly.

I really dunno whether r u still cautious now? still recognize us? or still even understand what we're telling u? I really dunno... that's the scariest time for me to see u in that condition but now, u slowly fading off ur memory, u no longer talking alot, u no longer have any strength to support urself. 嬷嬷, i will be next to u no matter what. I will pray for u... pray for the best for u. If God and Grandpa wanna bring u to a more peaceful and better place, I'm really glad and happy for that as long as u don't suffer from the pain.

to me now, breathing the same air that u breath, being the same space that u r in is really "The Gift" of the day to me. I will keep praying for u... just rest and listen to my prayer and u will be just fine 嬷嬷! Don't be afraid, just follow your heart.. Follow the wind...

You are doin great! Looking Beautiful too like what mummy told u!

I LOVE YOU!

Dear Grandma....

Dear Grandma,

I know u have been really struggling with ur breathing, ur pain, ur ache.. It's hard.. I know... I feel u... everytime when i'm looking into ur eyes, i feel u... I know it's not easy to bare with this.

It's been almost 2 weeks u walking in and out from the hospital. I know u don't like it at all... So much till u raise ur voice saying the Hospital Bluff Money $$! I always enjoy looking at ur angry face scolding people that try to bluff our money! I know that when u scold, u talk loudly, u r clear, u r healthy. U just want to stay home and just be by our side. Every single time when we come and visit u, u will just welcome us with ur warm melting smile. It really melts my heart grandma. (And i do think that i have my sunshine smile from u! ", the irresistible one..)

Grandma, I really don't care about what doctor told us about, be prepared on ur departure, I just want grandma to know that u did a great job 嬷嬷! A very great job raising 12 children of urs as well as ur grandchildren. It's not easy at all to raise so many of us. Ur patient, ur love, ur care, ur understanding. U play a very important role in my life. Here I am standing Strong and Tall it's all because of ur love 嬷嬷... U meant so much to me!

All my childhood is all about u and grandpa. U both took care of me when daddy and mummy are out there working. U r the one that put me to bed, makesure i always covered with blanket and not catch cold. I missed those days that i slept next to u... It's just unsubscribed love.

U always makesure i have my cup of milo and bread before i get up to my school bus. Protected me when i got scold by daddy. U always believe in me, always tell people that i'm such a good grand daughter. Even though u don't know how to read and write but u r there to guide me on my HW which i dunno how... Lol. Ended up me teaching u how to read and write. Well, 嬷嬷, i know u don't even have a clue what am i trying to teaching u that time but all u r trying to do is just accompany me, be one of my playmate when Kah Fai is only 3 years old. So to be frank, i was never alone when i'm in my childhood. U are always there. And 嬷嬷, thanks for being there to support and encourage me in anything i do.

嬷嬷, It's so hard to actually asking me to stop, and just accepting the fact that u gonna be leaving me anytime... I always remember what i told u when i am about 8 years old. I told u that "嬷嬷, 你不可以死现, 不可以哦！我死了你才可以死！” It's just me hating to see her leaving me before me! It sounds really silly but ya, i want you to live a longer life then i do.

I know i am not a good grand daughter. Giving u hell when i was young. I'm really sorry grandma. But u will always be there by my side no matter what. and now i'm already a Woman grandma. I can take care of myself. I'm actually very Happy that now i can take care of u, visiting u as much as i can... It's really my pleasure!

嬷嬷, No matter what, I want u to be happy. “嬷嬷好，大家好！”

嬷嬷, I'm so honour to be ur grand daughter! Thanks for being the woman in my life! I will always keep ur sunshine smile with me.. always always in my heart!

Love u always,
子殷

I love Tuesday Night - the Salsa Night!!

I can't wait for every Tuesday night to come, It's my salsa class... A night that i truly enjoy myself with music, soul and body, not in a peaceful way but in a more lively movement steps where i dance along with salsa music and sway my body with the tempo that i count in my mind! I count "1,2,3... 5,6,7..." That's basically the tempo of the music and steps when we combine both together with our mambo. Loving the class, Loving myself looking at the mirror and dance tall, dance confidently! "Dance Tall" will be the words that Sam kept telling me! I tempt to look down alot on my steps but Sam, my instructor telling me to be calm and confident!!

"STAND TALL!"

Good Night!

A 2 days 1 nights Family Trip @ Cameron Highlands

I just came back from a Sunny cozy trip with my family 2 days ago. Not a 3 days 2 nights of trip but we only put one night @ Cameron Highlands since my daddy having bad diarrhea along the journey. Toilet were needed on our way up to the hill of Cameron. Blame it on a bottle of v-soy that he drinks a day ago! Well, only thing here was we didn't put up another day @ Penang but just nice as long as there's the 4 of us, traveling together as a family! Sweetttt....

Sungai Palas "Boh" Tea Plantations (One of the oldest plantations)

So here we are... the beautiful greenie Cameron Highlands, the Highlands that cover up with tea plantations, vegetable, flowers, cactus, and strawberry farms. I will call it as a friendly mountain if Genting Highland are called the entertainments mountain. If u would ask me which highlands will i prefer, definitely Cameron going to be my all time fav.

Lots of memories that i have on this mountain. Let me tell u few :

• I have my very first horse ride here @ Strawberry Park.
• My late uncle Foo used to be the Branch Manager of HSBC Bank, Tanah Rata where he stayed at this really nice cozy villa over there for a couple of years.
• The scar on my forehead was actually
• from my uncle's villa when my cousin trying to catch me when we're playing Police and Thief and i knock my head towards the gate fence.. that was so painful!!
• I have lots of childhood taken there in the rose farm
• My LP 4th weekend were there and we have 96% of us attended our weekend! One of the top achievements in 4th weekend
• I have the best BBQ night @ Gerard's Guest house with Mic, Eva and Sue!
• Our very first Smurfies trip there.
• My grandparents celebrates their birthday @ Gerard's "father's guest house" where my grandpa loving it alot!
• Joey and I very first trip there as a couple 2 and a half years ago!
• and this time is goin to be a family trip up to Cameron with daddy's diarrhea moments! lol

Here's some photos that I snap along the journey :

a very original strawberry milk shake (sweet & sour), Vanilla Ice cream with fresh strawberry toppings and there's a huge strawberry farms opposite the shop where they have this 4 rolls of strawberry plants where they didn't gated it up and free for us to plug and eat fresh self plugged strawberry! Yummy!!!!!


Cameron Wild Orchids @ Gerard's Secrets Garden , Elizabeth , Purple Chrysanthemum & Blushy Pink Roses. You can find it all @ the Father's Guest House.


A "MUST EAT!!!" Big Boy's Breakfast @ Father's Guest House which is at Gerard's Place, Tanah Rata where they serve delicious American Breakfast with PORK Bacon, Scrambled Eggs, Bake Beans and also toasts with Fresh Strawberry Jam. Finger Licking Good man...

So these r the 2 Super Heros of my life. 1 definitely gonna be my dad and the other one will be my LP Buddy, Gerard Richard. The one that can't even remember my name in my Advanced Couse but now.. nah.. We're good Buddies. As you realise earlier, I've been mentioning alot of his name, and here u can see, that's Gerard Richard with his beloved wife Jay and his daughter. So lovely this photo where we took it at his Guest house where mostly all the foreign backpackers stay here. A very nice environment cottage planted with lots of beautiful flowers where Gerard and his wife managed it together. If u want to feel the original Cameron, Father's Guest House is definitely the place that best to be! the location of the place is just opposite Heritage Hotel. If u want to stay over, makesure u book it a month earlier because it's normally full. You can also log in to their website for more information: http://fathers.cameronhighlands.com/

Sungai Palas Tea Plantation

the Sungai Palas "Boh" Tea Plantation from the bottom view from the tea plantation when we're walking up to the Tea Factory. As u can see, that's actually the "Boh" Cafe.

The "Boh" Teh Tarik that u can hardly resist!



Photos I snap along the alley of the Tea Plantationsand of course my dear family portrait. Too bad it's a lil under exposure but ya, that's comes to the end of our lovely family trip!

I'm so looking forward for the coming trip that Joey gonna join us and we'll have Fai to drive us now instead of daddy!! Thanks to Daddy, Mummy and Fai for the lovely trip, and not to forget, Gerard too!

I found a very good spot in my toilet!!

yea... I found a very good spot in my toilet where i can lay my Macbook on my sink and i'm sitting on my bowl. Lol... Sounds a bit gross, not even abit, maybe very haha... but ya, this is such a right place to online while i'm doin my business in the toilet. I don't like to do nothing when i'm in the toilet. That's the best time to do something don't u agree. Like sometimes, song writers write their best song when they are businessing in the toilet! Lol... best inspiration are always coming from some strange place that u will not know, agree? haha...

Another Dress hunt for the weekend..

I'm finally lying down on my bed after a busy day. A heavy day today cause i'm trying to finish as much things as possible b4 i leave for the weekend!

That's What i normally like to do before i go to bed!! I'll hav a hot and warm shower, clean and fresh, lye down on my bed, open my Macbook and go online!! Facebooking (But i really have to stop this, somemore recently start to get addicted to Texas Hold'em Poker! Gosh!! all joey's bad for teaching me how to play during CNY!!!) I just log out from my facebook account and surfing and entering some blogshops with new arrivals! I dunno y, I really like to see what's the fashion out there now tht people will normally buy for party, dinner, casual, dates, outings and so on... and why will they sell this? Like to look at the way how they shoot their dresses fitting it on either themselves or on the mannequin. Love the way how they layout their blog. It's just interesting to look at right...

This is a very nice flowerish dress that i found it at [http://shopaholicsu.blogspot.com]. It's called as the Hawaiian Night

I like the name and i like the dress too. Look at the beads that tied on the shoulder. That's so holiday looking. Even a very nice dress to where when u r goin out with ur friends for afternoon tea time @ Bangsar Village 2's Delicious! Haha... I can even imagine where shall the dress be worn to. Lol.. But such a pretty dress and it only cost RM53. I actually bought 2 items from this shop before. Some of the dreeses are also designed by the owner, Leng, herself. She's a very nice lady. I enjoy buying things from her! and she's always very efficient with her delivery and her items are always in good condition.

a very Good Hunt for the night! Going off to bed now! Good Night!

Trying out my Patient on my products..

It's time to design some new pewter cachet for my notebook 2011. Time flies and now I'm starting up my engine again for year 2011 Notebook and Calendar Designs. Gawd... it's pretty soon my company's NB is on sales again!!

A really impatient someone like me, i normally come out with designs that not much of details work, maybe a simple motive like this... where it's just straight lines..

So this year, I want to take my drawing and patient skills to a next level. Challenging myself to draw something that's more lively like animals, flower since some of the souvenir shops @ Sabah asking us for more designs that symbolize the country.First thing that came across my mind is Mt. Kinabalu but i'm still looking for a right image for me to draw, which i'm still looking but Orang Utan will be one of the simplest one that i can find on the internet but OMG, look at the fur, the hands, it's all details drawing. Gosh, so I TAKE THIS STRETCH, drawing this cute creature in the rain forest of Borneo.

Taa daaa.... Take a look with this Orang Utan that i spend 3 hours plus to complete the whole drawing using illustrator.

I can't believe myself sitting on my place drawing this annoying hair one by one! however, it looks pretty impressive right? But i still feel that the tummy part looks a lil bit awkward. Gonna do some changes there. Going to show my artistic mum on this and she will give me some ideas on where i should do some changes. I hope that it looks nice when we craft it out in Pewter.

and here u go, a quick look at one of my Notebook ideas for year 2011. Slightly i diff concept. We used fancy paper glued on chipboard as our cover for this year's NB. But this year, I think i will prefer a stich bind with UV Varnish printed on my cover of the notebook. I'm not sure whether my boss like my ideas or not but haha.. to me, I'm gonna be taking charge of the year end products, and i don't care what is he gonna says!! haha.. as if I will do so! But ya, it's something diff so we have a wider range of notebook in our company. I'm looking forward for more designs coming up soon in this 3 weeks time!